Sunday, June 13, 2010

Signals from the Body

A famous writer once wrote on his column that there is a quota for everything in our life. This happens both physically and mentally One example is that the doctor will tell you on one day sooner or later that you cannot smoke your cigarette anymore, or else it will kill you. Another more relaxed example on himself is that on one day he suddenly cannot write anymore for he has not the least interest nor muse anymore. This is his personal life experience - the over 70-year-old man is on the way to his final life episode.

I recalled this article because recently my stomach always complains. It complains when I eat too much / too late / too early / too less / too oily / too heavy. It also complains when I eat something I has been favour a lot and healthy, like mushrooms. I still like mushrooms a lot, but I cannot have them much anymore. This is a signal from my body that I must control my diet. The time to eat as I wish is gone. I am trying to get used to this.

I can imagine how I will gradually lose the power over my body and my mind. This is a part of the life cycle. Then I shall ask, why do we create so many tasteless hardships ourselves?

Sunday, June 06, 2010

Relationships

When we are small, we tend to play with people of the same sex. In the age of 20-40, or 50, we enjoy spending time with people of opposite gender. Then when we are close to death, we gradually stay with people of the same sex again. This leads me to believe that we start and end with a simple ion, despite having a complicated time in between. Where I have come from is where I am heading to.

Relationships - I always agree that human is a sociable creature that we need to live in a group, which is why we have neighbourhood, community and society. However, I cannot deny that this is actually not necessary. Once there are more than two persons, there's politics. People randomly come across my life, and randomly leave my life for their own way. It is impermanence.

I lost my mobile recently that I lost most of my contacts. As always, I do not feel that I need those contacts urgently or desperately. In fact, once again it only proves how much I do not need them. I have arrived to this world alone, and I shall leave this world alone. Sounds so much like a circle - very small in one end, then grow to the biggest in the centre, ending the smallest again in the other end. Relationships, I found that after all, are not necessity. I may need one relationship, but it does not matter much if I lose it. There is nothing to lose in our life.

One may well call this as pessimism, yet I do not see how this may hinder me from reaching happiness. Happiness is impermanence.

I have noticed that most things do not weigh as much as they appear to be.