Relationships

When we are small, we tend to play with people of the same sex. In the age of 20-40, or 50, we enjoy spending time with people of opposite gender. Then when we are close to death, we gradually stay with people of the same sex again. This leads me to believe that we start and end with a simple ion, despite having a complicated time in between. Where I have come from is where I am heading to.

Relationships - I always agree that human is a sociable creature that we need to live in a group, which is why we have neighbourhood, community and society. However, I cannot deny that this is actually not necessary. Once there are more than two persons, there's politics. People randomly come across my life, and randomly leave my life for their own way. It is impermanence.

I lost my mobile recently that I lost most of my contacts. As always, I do not feel that I need those contacts urgently or desperately. In fact, once again it only proves how much I do not need them. I have arrived to this world alone, and I shall leave this world alone. Sounds so much like a circle - very small in one end, then grow to the biggest in the centre, ending the smallest again in the other end. Relationships, I found that after all, are not necessity. I may need one relationship, but it does not matter much if I lose it. There is nothing to lose in our life.

One may well call this as pessimism, yet I do not see how this may hinder me from reaching happiness. Happiness is impermanence.

I have noticed that most things do not weigh as much as they appear to be.