Relationships

When we are small, we tend to play with people of the same sex. In the age of 20-40, or 50, we enjoy spending time with people of opposite gender. Then when we are close to death, we gradually stay with people of the same sex again. This leads me to believe that we start and end with a simple ion, despite having a complicated time in between. Where I have come from is where I am heading to.

Relationships - I always agree that human is a sociable creature that we need to live in a group, which is why we have neighbourhood, community and society. However, I cannot deny that this is actually not necessary. Once there are more than two persons, there's politics. People randomly come across my life, and randomly leave my life for their own way. It is impermanence.

I lost my mobile recently that I lost most of my contacts. As always, I do not feel that I need those contacts urgently or desperately. In fact, once again it only proves how much I do not need them. I have arrived to this world alone, and I shall leave this world alone. Sounds so much like a circle - very small in one end, then grow to the biggest in the centre, ending the smallest again in the other end. Relationships, I found that after all, are not necessity. I may need one relationship, but it does not matter much if I lose it. There is nothing to lose in our life.

One may well call this as pessimism, yet I do not see how this may hinder me from reaching happiness. Happiness is impermanence.

I have noticed that most things do not weigh as much as they appear to be.

Recent TV Commercial

Recently the government has two TV commercials promoting its latest proposal on referendum movement. Seriously I hate watching them because I cannot stop thinking about the implications of these TV commercials, which make me uncomfortable.

The first commercial was a girl who designed a cocktail dress for herself, and in the end her mother made it for her. Looks like her mother is our government, which has tailored made the dress, or the referendum movement, for her. The girl, or people in Hong Kong, can only choose that dress without any saying. The mother did not measure the size of the girl; nor did the mother seek any comment from the girl. The only choice of the girl is to put on the dress, pretending she's very happy.

The second commercial was dancing teacher and his student. The dancing teacher kept going back to the first step, making the student unhappy - sounds like saying some people in Hong Kong hindering democracy development, making the "majority" in Hong Kong unhappy. Then when this proposal comes out, the dancing teacher leads his student to finish the whole dancing - saying the proposal is the right option that we must take.

I suspect the government treating its people fools. For what should I expect our government is able to lead us a positive future when the commercials simply demonstrate again how superficial this government is.

This once again proves the best has long gone.

Revisit

It's been so long that I am away from here. Let me resume, starting from today.

I should abandon the frame I set for myself as I feel it silly to create a burden myself for a place where I should have the full control, which no one will say anything actually.

This is an example again demonstrating how I am like many people who are stuck in the trap set by myself.

There are already so many constraints in my real life.